I just might let go.
I realized that the scope of my vocabulary is dismal, thus sparking a desire for the purchase of an updated dictionary, and or convincing someone to send mine at home to me. I have also found myself missing foreign language. I need to fix this.
My brother joined the Marines, as a reserve. I wasn’t prepared for that decision to come from him, out of the blue. I can’t claim to be thrilled or happy, but I will support him. That is the thing about him and I. We tend to do what we want. We will listen to others opinions, but at the end of the day, we know full well that the decision is in our hands and not everyone will like it. I wonder if his excitement will fade when it hits what being a Marine entails, or if he’ll carry along as he typically does, quiet and reserved, and will exceed expectations. He does that sometimes. He failed his first photography class. Now he is mad good at it, and I am proud of his accomplishments. He is passionate about the things he does, so I suppose that goes in his favor with this decision. I still don’t know how to get my emotions in order to match his, or find a way to channel my fear. Eh.
It’s not what I have been succeeding at lately. However another year has begun, life is swamped already, and final year is here. For an absence of a month, I don’t have much else to say. I’ll be back once I find something worth posting.
It’s midnight, lightning is piercing the sky in a heat storm, and the wind is rocking the trees. I find this an oddly comforting moment.